Duk fikir benda sama..over n over again

Saya buzy hari ni.
Buzy melayan hati.
Maaf, minda bercelaru.
Kena pejam mata dulu
Tidor
Mimpi yg indah indah
Esuk hadapi segalanya sekali lagi
Good night.

Nak khidmat runner. Help me.

Selagi pergerakan saya terbatas selagi itu lah saya terpaksa menyusahkan orang lain untuk bantu saya menyelesaikan urusan harian saya.
Tambah2 urusan yg memerlukan saya keluar.
Berjela senarai kerja yg tertangguh.
Nak tak nak....
Kena keluar juga rasanya.
Ikut hati yg masih tak berapa nak pulih lagi ni memanglah tak nak keluar.
Nak duduk diam2 di penjuru paling sunyi, nak layan rajuk hati.
Kalau ada lubang cacing rasa nak bertapa dlm tu.
Kalau boleh tak nak jengok ke luar pintu pun..
Entah kenapa rasa macam tak nak jumpa orang.
Malas nak jawap soalan2 yg saya dah agak orang akan tanya.
Tak mau bercerita tentang duka saya.
Nak tanggung segalanya sendiri, simpan dalam diri.
Tapi apa daya saya...
Walau hati masih dlm fasa berkabung,
Saya perlu cari penyelesaian untuk kehendak2 harian yg perlu di bereskan.
Macam mana ya.....
Kalau ada runner kan best.
Kalau saya minta runner yg buat semua kerja2 luar saya tentu selesai masaalah.
Runner adalah org yg kita bayar utk khidmat mereka.
Saya selesa begitu.
Saya taknak khidmat free walau ramai yg tawarkan.
Susah bila terhutang budi dan tak mau menyusahkan orang  juga.
Problem nya nak cari runner tu kat mana?
Ada ke?
Tolong lah, ada tak yg tau macam mana nak hubungi runner .
Please.....

Menadah tangan...

His sleeping beauty, Ja.

Ja
Do u miss papa?
Do u know that papa is no more here with us?
Do u know that he passed away on the same date that u delivered your 2nd child?
5 years after.
Ja,
Do u miss his voice reciting the verses of alQuran every morning by your side.
Do u miss his jokes that he shared with you whether you can hear him or not it didnt matter to him.
Ja,
Remember when you were a little girl..
You were his daughter that never grown up.
You were always on his lap and he was always there for you.
Ja
Remember that days when he broke your heart and you were so furious?
He admitted his mistakes and asked you for forgiveness.
He put aside his ego for your sake.
People make mistakes Ja, and I know you forgave him years back.
Ja
Now I need to talk.
I need a shoulder to cry on
He is not here but you are
I turn to you.

Ja,
Seing you lying there not saying a word makes me wonder
Do you miss him Ja?
Do you?

Kan dah cakap saya x beraya

Tahun ni...
X suka dengar lagu raya
X suka bau biskut raya
X nak tengok baju raya yg tailor baru hantar
X nak pasang lampu lip lap lip lap
X nak terima ucapan selamat beraya.

X nak x nak x nakkkkkkk!

Cepatlah berlalu musim beraya.
Kan dah cakap kami tak beraya, jgn duk pandai2 nak buat ulasan itu ini.
Mata yg memandang dan mulut yg membawang
Tak seberat bahu yg memikul dan hati yg menanggung.

Dah. Jgn tanya banyak banyak.
Usah nak pujuk hati saya.
Saya tunggu nak nangis saja ni, baik jgn kata apa2.