Entah ibu apa lah saya ni.
Eluk saja dia berehat di rumah,
Saya bawak dia ke hospital.
Niatnya untuk pasang alat baru,
Sumpah, niat saya hanya untuk kebajikan dia.
Tak berniat untuk lebih sakitkn dia.
Tapi tengok lah,
Look at her now......
Saya lah ibu yg paling bodoh kerana percayakan cakap2 doktor yg mengatakan
"Pasang tu sekejap jer, mudah dan senang jaga"
And it turns out....
Tiga hari berpuasa tanpa berbuka
Proses pemasangan tak siap siap..tunda lagi dan lagi...
Apa ni?
Apa ni?
Ja, ja yg tanggung sakit....
Mummy tak akan maafkan diri mummy atas segala kepayahan yg ja lalui...
Tell me that I am stupid!
Tell me that I am the worst mother alive
Tell me that please.
3 comments:
you acted on expert's advice, you only wanted the best for your daughter, never would you want her to suffer. dont feel bad, accept this as all HIS plans. we have no knowledge. we can only try to do our very best. have good thoughts that your daughter is well taken care of by the Almighty. Dont think that she's in pain. these are our perceptions, in reality, the Compassionate and Merciful is capable of removing all pain. dont be too hard on yourself. you need to be strong, healthy, physically, mentally, emotionally to give the best to Ja. BarakAllahu fikum.
If I am Ja, I want to hug you and tell you thank you mummy. Hate yourself and I feel sad. Be strong and I feel happy.
Proses berubat begitulah. Sakit nak datang, cepat sangat.......
Mereka lebih tahu.
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