Tuesday, December 15, 2009
being stupid like always
When I am lonely
I become stupid.So stupid.
I turned to those that I thought can help me beat the loneliness
And what I got is disappointment.
I picked the wrong person to turn to
that is why I said I am stupid.
I hope I can beat loneliness by just sharing it with someone
trying to get some attention like always.
I am human,.. Second silly mistake.
I should bear in mind that loneliness is something not to be shared,
I have to face it alone
I get angry when nobody wants to waste time with me.
I feel rejected
and I am being ridiculous
Why should I be mad at people for not being here for me?
I am a nobody and I should understand that.
I feel sorry for myself.
This pathetic old, fat n ugly lady is so neglected
Alone n will always be.
As if this is my first time being alone.
I am stupid alright.
Stupid for believing that out there...
There are people like me,
just like me.
As stupid as me.