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Tuesday, December 15, 2009

being stupid like always


When I am lonely
I become stupid.So stupid.
First
I turned to those that I thought can help me beat the loneliness
And what I got is disappointment.
I picked the wrong person to turn to
that is why I said I am stupid.
Second
I hope I can beat loneliness by just sharing it with someone
trying to get some attention like always.
I am human,.. Second silly mistake.
I should bear in mind that loneliness is something not to be shared,
I have to face it alone
Third
I get angry when nobody wants to waste time with me.
I feel rejected
and I am being ridiculous
Brainless!
Why should I be mad at people for not being here for me?
I am a nobody and I should understand that.
Fourth
I feel sorry for myself.
This pathetic old, fat n ugly lady is so neglected
Alone n will always be.
Pity me.
As if this is my first time being alone.
Lastly...
I am stupid alright.
Stupid for believing that out there...
There are people like me,
just like me.
As stupid as me.

5 comments:

A love too srong to die said...

lucky
First
I turned to you that I thought can help me beat the loneliness
And what I got is happiness.
I picked the right person to turn to
that is why I said I am lucky.
Second
I hope I can beat loneliness by just sharing it with you
trying to get some attention like always.
I am human,.. Second best approach.
I should bear in mind that loneliness is something that has to be shared,
I shouldnt face it alone as i got you
Third
I feel happy when you want to waste time with me.
I feel appreciative
and I am being so smart
Why should I be sad if there is someone like u?
I am not all alone and I should understand that.
Fourth
I feel happy for myself.
This lucky , fat n ugly guy is so blessed
no longer Alone n will always be.
cheers for me
As if this is my last time being alone.
Lastly...
I am smart alright.
Smart for believing that out there...
There are people like me,
just like me.
As smart as me.

hani@debumelukut said...

wahai anakanda 'a love too strong to die..
Yes u r right, CikNi will always be here for u,like it or not i will always be ur nagging aunty.hehehe..

Anonymous said...

Salam Kak,

I stumbled upon your blog recently and nak kata I have become a regular visitor tidak juga but once in a while bila nampak link to your blog memang I akan click on it. Maybe some of what you have written touched my heart. Tapi walaupun negative it may sound, I agree with you; loneliness cannot be shared. Orang tak akan faham masalah kita, worst still, they may laughed at us behind our back. So choose friend wisely Kak; sometimes it is better to bottle everything inside us; meletup pun meletuplah. Muga Tuhan memberi ketenangan buat kita

hani@debumelukut said...

tq anonymous..u r right.loneliness is not a game that u hv the power to stay in or out..u just don't hv any other options..so live wt it..

maiyah said...

stupid.. im

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